Sunday, May 4, 2008

Wanna see it clear....conflicts within me


Cant wait to sing this song "I see it clear now.." from Cool Runnings. Not that Im unable to sing it but i want to actually see some things clearly.

See it clear why I hate it when my gaurdians ask so many qns daily and also hate it when they dont...
See it clear why I want people to care about me and I dont value it enough when they do...
See it clear what I want is actually what I want or is it the rat race that is pushing me to re-shape my interests...
See it clear why I wanna be and am good and yet feel embarrassed and undeserved when people feel and say so...
See it clear why I wanna be good and bad at the same time...
See it clear if the path im following will lead to me to what I aspire...
See it clear why it is that though I am partially insensitive to what I perceive, the memories bring in the feelings I should have felt then...

By seeing it clear I dont mean I want to know the future..I like its mystic nature but what I mean is, having a rational outlook,I wish to have a reason for what I feel though Im sure the inner most me knows it all...I just wish to hear it loud...

:) Well well, these were my musings when was I in the middle of my viva preparation...when I realized its time I strain my little grey cells a bit before I step out of college ...:D