Wanna see it clear....conflicts within me

Cant wait to sing this song "I see it clear now.." from Cool Runnings. Not that Im unable to sing it but i want to actually see some things clearly.

See it clear why I hate it when my gaurdians ask so many qns daily and also hate it when they dont...
See it clear why I want people to care about me and I dont value it enough when they do...
See it clear what I want is actually what I want or is it the rat race that is pushing me to re-shape my interests...
See it clear why I wanna be and am good and yet feel embarrassed and undeserved when people feel and say so...
See it clear why I wanna be good and bad at the same time...
See it clear if the path im following will lead to me to what I aspire...
See it clear why it is that though I am partially insensitive to what I perceive, the memories bring in the feelings I should have felt then...

By seeing it clear I dont mean I want to know the future..I like its mystic nature but what I mean is, having a rational outlook,I wish to have a reason for what I feel though Im sure the inner most me knows it all...I just wish to hear it loud...

:) Well well, these were my musings when was I in the middle of my viva preparation...when I realized its time I strain my little grey cells a bit before I step out of college ...:D